am a home. 1:25
Omni Present 2:24
Running Time 3:49
MARS Release 67 - February 24, 2011
MARS EP15 - Prodigious in Paltry
I felt the tracks went perfectly together and didn't want to add
anymore to spoil it. This is the only MARS release thus far that is
simply a release, not a single, an ep, or an album.
Prodigious in Paltry comes from the vast sound yet small amount of
music. It also carries the idea of the illimitable God indwelling a
meager person as Jesus Christ does those who trust Him thus the song
titles "I am a home." and "The Omni Present" (The All Present because
Jesus gives us all of Himself).
All tracks recorded February 11, 2011
Released for Piemerica's 13th
Artwork November 9, 2007
Anywhere or alone, I have it all, I
have a home. ~Prodigious in Paltry
Running Time 29:05
MARS Release 68 - December 31, 2011
MARS LP32 - Mirroring Wishes
A musical and aural journey through my life in the year 2011. Mister
Wonderful is dedicated to my dad who passed away August 15th.
Mirroring Wishes, Mixed Wants, Mirage Wasteland, &
Warpath written and recorded March 2, 2011
Midnight Wake written and recorded March 2, 2011; arranged and mixed
March 3, 2011
Messiah Waits & Marked Weakness written and recorded March 3,
Missing Weights written March 4, 2011;
arranged, and mixed December 30-31, 2011
Multiplying Worth, Master Working written and
recorded March 4, 2011
Mr. Wonderful written March 4 &
2011; recorded, arranged, and mixed December
Artwork November 8, 2007, Text March 13, 2008
Mirroring Wishes (The Album)
The title and MW theme come from the artwork made in 2008. Because the
artwork is a mirrored M or W the title is Mirroring Wishes. All music
of the songs was written in early March 2011. I had moved to a new city
and had been without a job for some while. At the time my wife was also
miserable at her job with her schedule. This was the most miserable
time in our marriage thus far. A lot of the music conveys my emotions
and the turmoil of this period. Tracks 1-9 were completely finished in
March. My dad died August 15th. I began listening to these songs again
and looking at the titles. The emotions in the songs originally
represented my miserable time in Feb/March. Like a strange gift from
God retroactively these songs gained new meanings for this new turmoil.
The title carries the idea that I want my desires to match God's
I wanted things that seem to contradict. To have something without
having to do what almost everyone says is necessary to get it.
The clear portions into the sliding, swirling portions represent having
a confidence toward a desire then having things mixed up and then
having confidence towards another desire. Circumstances can change
desires and clockwork can turn into an uncontrollable mess.
The mixed wants come from people making you feel obligated to control
the uncontrollable. I wanted the same goal as they did but I didn't
want control and sorta knew I didn't have it. When you try to control
the uncontrollable, especially when you are pressured to do so, you
feel like a worthless failure when it doesn't work.
The swirling portions also represent how it drives you crazy when
people say "Do this, it will work." You try it, it doesn't work, but
you keep getting told to do the same thing that isn't even supposed to
work. I wanted to trust God (to provide, get me a job) but everyone,
including myself, was telling me to "go make it happen." I think all of
those involved have learned to varying degrees to trust God instead of
wasting energy and sanity trying to force the unforceable.
For those who know God the wasteland is the mirage and the reality is
The hectic in the song is our perception of a situation in the present
while the reality is the calm. We don't feel calm because we don't
perceive calm. We fear the uncertain future instead of trusting the
certainly loving God. In the hectic portion we can sometimes hear
glimpses of the calm among the chaos.
The song is originally my anger and frustration of March 2011. Even if
you are not angry the outpouring of emotion from someone's death can
cause anger to easily come out as suffering makes you more sensitive.
The repetition of the music is the warpath, a wallowing in anger that
causes emotions to be intentional even though they are unpleasant to
you. The vocal like background is the internal emotions. The guitar
riffs present a stomping fury of dissatisfaction.
Recorded months before my dad's death I think the title originally had
the idea of "waking up at midnight."
This song just sounds like midnight to me. It reminds me of those
nights staying with my mom the week of my dad's death. It also reminds
me of my old home surrounded by cornfields, lightning bugs, and star
light. The fuzziness of the music is like the fuzziness of blue, red,
and purple you see when you close your eyes really tight. There are
sounds representative of traffic, trains, planes, strong wind, and the
black void of night. This is what I feel in the blackest of nights and
there is a calm beauty pervading the noise. The last moments of the
song represent the orange glow of your unopened eyelids before they
open to the sunlight of the morning.
God is the type of Father that is ok with you throwing a tantrum even
if you are ok. He doesn't want you to pretend. He wants to heal what is
real. Reality is the best way to resolution.
The reverb/flange is us seeing glimpses of Jesus like a slow glowing
strobe. There are beautiful strings undercurrenting the song letting us
know that even while He is waiting He is working.
Marked Weakness is that my weakness has been identified. The greatest
weakness is lack of trust in God because nearly all His strength comes
to you by your trust in Him. While He will prove Himself trustworthy He
won't force things on you. He never marks your weakness with guilt. Our
weakness isn't made known to condemn us but so God can be strong for
us. What a wonderful thing it is to fall into the hands of the loving
Even in the beauty of the tones there is a tension in the composition
and impact. The help of a friend is a wonderful thing but realizing we
need help can be tough to confront.
When my weakness is known the strength of God is known. Multiplying
Worth isn't that I have become more valuable to God but that I quickly
began to see my immense value to Him.
The music represents unfolding discoveries. The stutter-like, imperfect
playing/mixing represents the taken aback feeling you get when you find
out you are wrong about something. The counterfeit debt must be taken
away for the true value to be appraised. Because Jesus has appraised me
at great value I praise Him for His.
This song represents how God changes us. He works joyfully, not
begrudgingly. We tend to only pick up on His work when it is "loudest."
The three-peating music represents how He works long on the same
things. The different octaves and sound levels represent the different
methods He uses to change us. He in no way exclusively uses bible
reading and prayer. The third portion of the song gets much lower in
volume. It represents the change He has made becoming part of our
character. We are now naturally inclined to be what He has made us and
it becomes less noticeable to us but He is still working.
The playing, and some of the mixing toward the end, has an awkwardness
that represents the feeling of moving about after a long weight has
been lifted off of you. The tone and tune have a child-like quality to
them. It is like learning to walk anew now that the burdens (guilt,
shame, fear, obligation) have been lifted off of me.
This song is ultimately dedicated to my dad, Arturo Reyes, who passed
away August 15, 2011. It is also dedicated to God my Father.
I really wanted to make a song for this album dedicated to my dad. When
the end of the year came I didn't have anything and wanted to release
this. I had an earlier take of Missing Weights that had a different
arrangement which I had slowed down, I reversed it to see what it would
sound like and the beauty of the music let me know that God had given
me the song "Mister Wonderful" as I had wished. This uses the same
music as Missing Weights which is why it says it was written partially
in March 2011 before my dad died.
Although the music alone doesn't specifically remind me of my dad I
feel in the sounds the beauty of a life.
My dad's death was unexpected. The song ends abruptly and is followed
by a moment of silence.
Mister Wonderful has the same music as Missing Weights but reversed
with a different arrangement and tempo. Missing Weights has a
child-like quality while Mister Wonderful depicts the end of a life.
This is also symbolic of the fact that my dad raised me.
I want what you want yet
I don't know. I fight & I scrape feeling dark & alone. But
there you are freeing me & filling me up because I found what you
wanted. You simply wanted me. ~Mirroring Wishes